Two years ago, more than a year after it all happened, but still too recent to learn how to deal with it and let go; especially for me.
People tell you to relax, to take it easy, but when they are in a similar situation they get really worked up too. It’s not fair. But you just need to stay quiet and hold it in. Like a lot of times, you know you’re right, but you can’t say it. You just need to let things go on and eventually they will realize what you were saying. They wont tell you, but you’ll know it.
Sometimes I think why did this happen to me? Did I do something wrong? Did it happen to teach me a lesson? But no, I have come to realize that it has just made a better and stronger person. I will reach my goal. It is still there and I can still get there. It will just take a little bit longer but it will be worth it. I am just learning more lessons along the way. And it has made me learn how strong I really am. I would have never imagined that this would happen or how I would deal with it, and you never even think about it. It’s something you never want to think about. And you are not prepared for either. That’s why it’s called an accident. But you just have to deal with it.
Other people who just don’t know how, can’t or just don’t want to, there’s just no point in keeping them with you.
I have gotten really far with people who understand how hard this is for me and want to see me succeed. Those people I know will always be there for me and I will always be there for them. People, who just don’t even try to understand and can’t handle it, are just not worth wasting time over. It may sound selfish, but it’s not, there are times when you just have to think about what is better for you. People, who stand in your way, when you are going through a difficult time, are just not worth having around.