First of all I would like to say congratulations to everyone who is graduating today, or anyone who is graduating this month. Especially I want to congratulate my mom, who is one of the strongest women I know and has set a great example for me to follow. She is receiving her master’s degree in Tecnología Educativa (Educational Technology) at Universidad del Sagrado Corazon (Sacred Heart University). I have seen how hard she worked, how much she enjoyed it, and hope the best comes from this great achievement.
¡FELICICADES MAMI! ¡Te quiero mucho!
Now, I would like to dedicate today’s post to something that was brought to my attention yesterday that I hadn’t really thought of. I knew that all of this I had been through changed me, and I thought I was dealing with it, going to therapies, psychologist, psychiatrist, and getting all my medications. I felt pretty good about myself about being more honest. But there was one thing I never really thought about.
Being honest and being mean are two very different things and I kind of forgot where that line was. I was being honest, but sometimes that honesty went too far. I turned into a real b…h. When this came to my attention yesterday I was terrified. I need to fix this because I never wanted to be mean and I never thought I would be. And I know this happens after you suffer from a Brain Injury, but that doesn’t make it ok. Now that I am aware of this, I want to do my best to control what I say, or the way I say it.
I would like to apologize to anyone who I have been mean to, unfair, or just b…y. I never meant to be this way, I just got caught up in just trying to make people see their problems towards others, I really didn’t mean to let out my problems on all of you. I thought going to doctors was enough and I thought I was getting back to the old me, the real me. But the real me is quiet, thinks twice before saying things, and is very nice (or at least I think). I just got lost in being honest and outspoken.
I have to control what I say out loud, as I do when I write. So I have to think, if I were writing this, how would I say this?