I didn’t show it in my post on Facebook, but I was terrified.
I had been waiting for this for months and it meant that I could go home soon. Also, I wouldn’t need a helmet or have two holes in my head. However, just the thought of a surgery was scary, another surgery in my head was (sorry for this, and I didn’t) crap my pants scary.
I remember leaving my aunt’s house, to go to Syracuse and have the surgery. As we were packing the day before, my youngest cousin came into my room and asked me if I was leaving. When I answered yes I saw tears in his eyes. Why? I don’t want you to leave, he said as he cried. I hugged him and said, I know but I have to. Then I explained that I needed surgery to get my head back to normal. He asked if we were going home after I said yes.
It’s been three years and I haven’t forgotten that moment because it meant so much to me that he said that. It’s moments like that, unplanned, sincere and heartfelt moments that remind you that you are not alone.
Being calm while I hugged my cousin, being calm and strong enough not to burst into tears with him helped me see that I could go through with this. I could be brave enough to go into surgery and to trust those great doctors.
Now I see that I was braver than I ever thought I could be.
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I’m an aspiring writer still looking for exactly what I want to write about, with a lot of creativity, imagination and desire to write.
I studied Writing and Rhetoric at Syracuse University where I explored many different sides of writing through my classes and extracurricular activities in order to narrow my search for an identity as a writer.
I have written for Citrus TV Noticias and La Voz magazine, both of which gave me the chance to explore different mediums in which to write in. Through Citrus TV Noticias I also gained experience in translating from English to Spanish and vice versa, which is also something that I would be interested in working on since I am fluent in both of these languages. I was also an intern at Syracuse University Press where I got hands on experience in what goes into actually editing and publishing a book.
Through out the last four years I have faced a lot of challenges, which helped chape the person I am today. After being in a tragic car accident, being in comma, having a Traumatic Brain Injury, and being in therapy for over a year, I am a new me, willing to face challenges and knowing how to deal with them. I want to write about my accident and life after it to help others, show them it can be done and help in any way I can.
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I didn’t show it in my post on Facebook, but I was terrified.
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