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Felicidades Mami, and I just realized I still have some more work to do

First of all I would like to say congratulations to everyone who is graduating today, or anyone who is graduating this month. Especially I want to congratulate my mom, who is one of the strongest women I know and has set a great example for me to follow. She is receiving her master’s degree in Tecnología Educativa (Educational Technology) at Universidad del Sagrado Corazon (Sacred Heart University). I have seen how hard she worked, how much she enjoyed it, and hope the best comes from this great achievement.

¡FELICICADES MAMI! ¡Te quiero mucho!

#GradUSC15 #prouddaughter

Now, I would like to dedicate today’s post to something that was brought to my attention yesterday that I hadn’t really thought of. I knew that all of this I had been through changed me, and I thought I was dealing with it, going to therapies, psychologist, psychiatrist, and getting all my medications. I felt pretty good about myself about being more honest. But there was one thing I never really thought about.

Being honest and being mean are two very different things and I kind of forgot where that line was. I was being honest, but sometimes that honesty went too far. I turned into a real b…h. When this came to my attention yesterday I was terrified. I need to fix this because I never wanted to be mean and I never thought I would be. And I know this happens after you suffer from a Brain Injury, but that doesn’t make it ok. Now that I am aware of this, I want to do my best to control what I say, or the way I say it.

I would like to apologize to anyone who I have been mean to, unfair, or just b…y. I never meant to be this way, I just got caught up in just trying to make people see their problems towards others, I really didn’t mean to let out my problems on all of you. I thought going to doctors was enough and I thought I was getting back to the old me, the real me. But the real me is quiet, thinks twice before saying things, and is very nice (or at least I think). I just got lost in being honest and outspoken.

I have to control what I say out loud, as I do when I write. So I have to think, if I were writing this, how would I say this?

#imsorry #noexcuses

Published by mariacristinasanfeliu

I’m an aspiring writer still looking for exactly what I want to write about, with a lot of creativity, imagination and desire to write. I studied Writing and Rhetoric at Syracuse University where I explored many different sides of writing through my classes and extracurricular activities in order to narrow my search for an identity as a writer. I have written for Citrus TV Noticias and La Voz magazine, both of which gave me the chance to explore different mediums in which to write in. Through Citrus TV Noticias I also gained experience in translating from English to Spanish and vice versa, which is also something that I would be interested in working on since I am fluent in both of these languages. I was also an intern at Syracuse University Press where I got hands on experience in what goes into actually editing and publishing a book. Through out the last four years I have faced a lot of challenges, which helped chape the person I am today. After being in a tragic car accident, being in comma, having a Traumatic Brain Injury, and being in therapy for over a year, I am a new me, willing to face challenges and knowing how to deal with them. I want to write about my accident and life after it to help others, show them it can be done and help in any way I can.

14 thoughts on “Felicidades Mami, and I just realized I still have some more work to do”

  1. Hola Kiki!!!
    Sabes que cada vez que te veo en el camp (porque nos está ayudando en nuestro summer camp) digo: ¡qué maravilla! ¡Con el susto que pasamos!
    Tengo que confesar que nunca rezo y por tí puedo decir que hablé con Papà Dios o como le querramos llamar.
    Recuerda que: caminas, subes y bajas escaleras, comprendes, sigues instrucciones, nos ayudas cantidad, escribes…estàs viva. Pues, qué importa no tener filtro y decir las cosas como son. Eso se trabaja poco a poco y lo màs importante de todo esto es que ya tienes una idea de còmo hacerlo. Pero no lo cambies demasiado, siempre necesitamos la verdad. No matter what. We ❤️ U!!

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  2. Marimer…. felicitaciones.
    Madre ejemplar, hija ejemplar,
    éxito a las dos y muchos cariños.
    Kiki…. me gusta mucho leer tu blog, y este “post” en particular me encanto!! Abrazos …

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  4. Si cariño, yo tambien quiero felicitar a Marimer, por todos sus esfuerzos y trabajos.
    Estoy tan orgullosa de la forma en que has tomado la iniciativa de estructurar tu vida a través de tus retos. Solamente las personas con esa fortaleza interior que posees y que has decidido cultivar, puede lograr derribar los muros y abrir las alas para volar. Pero tu vuelo tiene que ser realista, y por eso amo este escrito de hoy, porque demuestra madurez, si bien es cierto que muchas veces el filtro que tenemos puede ser afectado por accidentes cerebrales de muchos tipos, y el tuyo fue realmente traumático y a la vez milagroso, el milagro mayor es no darte por vencida y aprovechar esta segunda oportunidad que el Señor te ha dado para vivir una vida productiva con alas y con raices. Los que te queremos y te admiramos de verdad podemos entender que a veces nos digas la verdad sin adornos, pero siempre es bueno hacerle ver a la persona que es respetada aunque diferimos de ella, por eso para que de verdad logres tu meta, pidele a las personas con quien hablas que te ayuden a darte cuenta si necesitas reconsiderar la forma en que dices las cosas, pero nunca, reconcideres dejar de decir la verdad. Es facil, Kiki, eres muy amada, un abrazo, Mariloly

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  5. Las felicito a las dos!! Sois grandes mujeres ademas de tener una espiritualidad interior que irradia paz a todos. Me encanta leer tu blog Ma Cristina ayuda a q cada dia agradezcamos las maravillas del vivir. !Exito!

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