Today is the 5 year anniversary of waking up from a coma.
As I try to think back to the moment I woke up, I have nothing. People have told me stories about my mom and step-dad getting married that day at the hospital and I think that’s why I woke up (Happy Anniversary!) The only thing I did was look at people in the eyes, I made eye contact, sort of smiled at people, and seemed to be aware of my surroundings.
It was a joyous moment, that I wish I could remember but as hard as I try to remember, I just can’t. But I have read about other patients who can remember everything, from when they were in the coma, like dreams, to what happened when they woke up. If I’m being honest, I don’t remember anything; the night of the accident, during the coma or immediately after.
This is why I can’t really understand when I read about people describing what it felt like waking up. I know everyone’s experience is different and unique and I sometimes think about why I don’t remember anything. I wonder if I want to remember or if it’s better to not remember anything. Would that hunt my memories and be too hard to think about? Would that cause me pain or make me happy to see my friends and family there?
What do you think? (There’s no right answer, I just want to hear some opinions.)
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I’m an aspiring writer still looking for exactly what I want to write about, with a lot of creativity, imagination and desire to write.
I studied Writing and Rhetoric at Syracuse University where I explored many different sides of writing through my classes and extracurricular activities in order to narrow my search for an identity as a writer.
I have written for Citrus TV Noticias and La Voz magazine, both of which gave me the chance to explore different mediums in which to write in. Through Citrus TV Noticias I also gained experience in translating from English to Spanish and vice versa, which is also something that I would be interested in working on since I am fluent in both of these languages. I was also an intern at Syracuse University Press where I got hands on experience in what goes into actually editing and publishing a book.
Through out the last four years I have faced a lot of challenges, which helped chape the person I am today. After being in a tragic car accident, being in comma, having a Traumatic Brain Injury, and being in therapy for over a year, I am a new me, willing to face challenges and knowing how to deal with them. I want to write about my accident and life after it to help others, show them it can be done and help in any way I can.
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2 thoughts on “I try to think about the moment I woke up”
Lo q importa es q siempre estuviste rodeada de amor. Quizás algún dia papa Dios te revele mejor los detalles. Dios te bendiga.
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Maria that’s an amazing story. I can only imagine how elated your mum must have been that you woke up on the day she was marrying the man she loved. That’s the best gift you could ever have given her.
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