I am 6 months, going on 7, seizure free; but that doesn’t change the fact that I have epilepsy, and this is a very scary thing. It’s the ongoing fear that you can have a seizure.
Today, at around 5 pm, I was really tired and I didn’t know why. I had just finished tutoring a seventh grader and I was just waiting to go home, when I was feeling a little dizzy. Maybe I was hungry, maybe I just needed dinner; or maybe I was just tired. I have said it again, I respect teachers to much for what they do. I cannot make it two hours doing what they do for more than 8 hours every day.
I sat down, I was still dizzy, I got home, I was still dizzy. I kept trying to make sure I wasn’t having an aura. My mom said I was ok because I was still making sense when I spoke, but I was still trying to keep my mind clear. I was trying to fight it, if I had an aura. I tried listening to music for a while, thinking about the article I read yesterday, just in case. I ate cheese while I waited for dinner to be ready. Then I ate dinner, but I was still kind of dizzy while I ate dinner.
After dinner I laid down in my bed and turned the lights off. Maybe I just needed to rest. I laid there for about half an hour, but I couldn’t sleep. My mom came into the room, she was here with me for a little while, and I rested some more, until it was 8 pm.
Then it was 8 and my alarm went off. I made it to 8 and I took my anti seizure medicine.
NO SEIZURES TONIGHT!
For a while I was scared I wouldn’t make it to 7 months, but it was nothing. I guess I’m just tired, but you never know with epilepsy; one minute you’re seizure free, the next you’re not.